Saturday, December 17, 2005

journal entry 109...

you know, the thing is, sure i reacted badly and in a bitter, negative way, but i survived it. it was the first time i've seen them together and of course it was going to be a shock and upset me. i could've handled it better and not let it get to me, but you know what? at least THEY didn't see me freak out. at least i didn't show them how much they hurt me. how much i hate them.

i saw them together and i survived it and everything is going to be okay. it can only get better from here.

the real healing starts now.


Blogger Bobby said...

put some weeks, months, and years between you and all that

December 17, 2005 3:35 PM  
Blogger jane kay doe said...

i think you're doing great and normal. and thank you SO SO SO much for the christmas disc! and i'm mailing you a little sumthin on monday.

December 17, 2005 5:48 PM  
Anonymous diana said...

I think you reacted in a perfectly reasonable way. Yes, in a way it was a little bitter and negative, but god, aren't you allowed that? I'm sure you're going to vacillate between that and the positive (& very wise) stuff you wrote in Journal Entry 102.

I disagree with you about the real healing starts now. I think you've been healing all along. Really, I think entry 102 was amazing - when I read that, I thought 'wow, she's going to be just fine...' Those are some great realizations. And just like you said sometime in an earlier post, I think you're going to be a much bigger person when you get through all of this.

Good for you.

December 18, 2005 9:36 AM  

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