Monday, February 20, 2006

journal entry 220...

well, i've accomplished just about nothing i'd planned to this weekend. yay me!

i've just been exceptionally lazy the past few weeks and all i wanna do is lie around and watch tv or movies. needless to say, i still haven't cracked a book. however, i still have today off so i'm going to try and cram everything into it: laundry, housecleaning, matinee, poem for friday, ironing, exercise, read. we'll see how many i actually finish.

surprisingly or not, i have been feeling a bit better now that it seems that J & A are over. i still haven't talked to either of them, but just knowing that they're no longer together, that it didn't work out, gives me a sense of comfort. knowing that they aren't on a team against me anymore makes me happy. and the fact that both of them are probably bumming and filled with regret, well, that's just icing. jerks.

still no word from HI but "the breakup" takes the sting away. i said everything i could to her and tried to open a door to healing the rift between us and that's all i can do. if she doesn't want to play, i can't force her. i wish it was different but it is what it is.

i think having ST as a confidante is making it easier too. having her to talk to and laugh with and test out the "single girl life" together makes it a little less frightening. we've got each other and that's cool. in some ways i feel like things are finally starting to get better and that there's hope for me yet. of course, i've been wrong before.


Blogger Bobby said...

You're going to get sick of me commentin on your blog. Ha ha.

But you write and post so fast, I can't keep up.

Hey - how do you start poems?

February 20, 2006 5:52 PM  

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