Monday, May 08, 2006

journal entry 248...

last night i dreamt i was on some kind of undercover stake out and i really had no clue what i was doing.

it was a farm or something and they were doing something they shouldn't be doing so we were sent out there to get the scoop. i was a little worried about getting found out because they'd obviously killed people before. there was a swamp on the land somewhere that was thick with blood from all the bodies that had been dumped there. it was quite unpleasant.

i wonder where these things come from. i'm a sick mofo.

tonight i'm supposed to meet ME and NA for drinks. i haven't seen them since the J&A incident and i'm totally not looking forward to it. i don't know why i ever agreed to it. it's not like they've even been friends to me and i don't want them to know my business or anything. i don't trust them.

so why am i doing this? because i'm a sap and can't say no apparently. i wish i could think of a way to get out of it.

this will be my first interaction with people from the old group and i feel kind of weird about it. i just want to leave that all behind and move on. whywhywhywhywhy do i put myself in positions like this?

hopefully it won't suck as bad as i expect it to. and then once i'm done, i'm done. i won't have to see them anymore.


Blogger jane kay doe said...

of all the dreams i've read in blogs, yours are the most interesting by far.

May 08, 2006 1:14 PM  

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